Compound wants to cancel my temp status and have me sign a contract to stay until October 2011. EEEKK!!! In my twisted mind, my answer is: NO. FUCKING .WAY
My plan is to tell JF this: “ I don't have a problem coming day to day (lie lie lie) but I am not comfortable signing a contract. (because I know I wont be able to honor it should a REAL & possibly WONDERFUL job appear) (of course that bit of info will be omitted from my conversation with her) I acknowledge I need the activity and I need the money but the stress of locking myself into this pit is too much. The only way I get thru day by day is knowing I can end it any time I want” Maybe needs some tweaking. What do you think?
I still don't want to sign but I guess I will. Ok- here I go..... really... pen in my hand...... I'll sign in just a sec... ok need more than a sec..... here I go .. really...really really...... oh who am I kiddiing? I'm going for a coffee to think about it yet some more. Even though there is nothing to think about except my apathy and foolish attitude problem. **sigh*** Maybe if I tape the pen into my hand it will stop falling out.......
20 minutes later....
Alrighty then...contract is now signed & signed in ink. Now I just have to get up and walk over to the HR desk. Here I go.....Ooopsie... my shoelace seems to be untied.... rats! It's in a knot...darn- how did that happen?
OK- back on track..... just get up and go...is that my phone? ...... maybe I should eat my orange first...gotta have that strength to walk 20 feet. Oh dear! Something in my eye now!! (Tears of regret?) & Since I just had that coffee I really have to pee.......... really...... such a shame the bathroom is on the other side of the building. Well I'll just be sure to drop the papers off at HR on my way.... yikes! guess I'm on auto pilot as I inadvertently went the other direction!
Breathe one two three... ohmmmmmm...Breathe one two three... stop being a scardy kat... you can do this.....
All this stressing has left me no choice but to eat my lunch early. Unfortunately, there was a food malfunction which resulted in a further contract delivery delay. I had to search for a tide pen. Which prompted a trip to the nearby london drugs. Oh dear- next thing you know I'm staring at chocolate bars......
One Hour Later.... Just so you know...I finally took those signed papers to HR...and damn! HR is at lunch ;)
