D & I took the afternoon and went to B for someshopping. It was nice to spend the day together. We had a Mexican (late) lunch and headed home.
It started to pour on the drive back and we ended up in the crush of rush hour. I saw all the traffic I'll be dealing with everyday with my new job commute. EEEKK!! I had THE WORST panic attack! I started to stress out that I made a horrible mistake by picking the job in Bitchmond. I never said a word to D -- I just freaked out inside my head. I've always had issues with commuting (I blame my home town for not having arush hour) and all the years I've lived in the city I have never adapted.
Now I am FREAKING OUT!!!!!! I know I know- thousands of people do it daily and I should suck it up- but that doesn't take away my anxiety. I'm such a mess. I hope I don't let this eat away at me and cost me (yet another) a job.
Speaking of jobs ---I called Mtn yesterday. When I identified myself to Kath her voice got all happy- and when I told her I declined she said "NO! Noooooooo" (aw gee- just make it harder) (make me doubt my decisions) I simply told her I had had another offer that was more on target with my current career goals. She asked that I keep in touch as she still thinks I'm a superstar (aw) (why does she have to be so nice and the others so stiff??)
Now I have to replay all the "right reasons" for accepting US.
